Hello everyone~! I never post here but since today is Shizuku-chan's birthday it's mandatory that I make a post just for her. Here is my birthday letter to her! I hope you will give it a read as it has all my emotions for Shizuku in it!
Dear Shizuku Osaka,
It was a normal day like any other day, I got news of a new Love Live group being released through the internet and I rushed to YouTube to find subbed videos of Nijigasaki’s (PDP back then) introductions and previews of their first solos. I was mesmerized by all these unique girls and was very excited for the next generation of the Love Live franchise. But none of them impressed me as much as you did, Shizuku. Sure, Karin is attractive, Setsuna is a passionate girl, everyone in Nijigasaki is amazing and I love them all very much! But none of them had your charm. None of them could match the enchantment and softness I felt when I first listened to Anata No Risou no Heroine. I loved the magical feelings I felt when listening to your singing, maybe not many people will understand what’s so amazing about you- no matter how much you prove yourself, but that doesn’t matter. Because You have always been my favorite. Even if everyone else in the world hated you for being you, I’d always be there listening to your beautiful voice and supporting you. I personally think that’s more powerful and impactful than having the largest crowd of fans in the world.
Maybe it’s weird, at the time you and me had nothing in common. Sure, I had a vague interest in theatre, and I even wanted to join the drama club in high school. But in the end I never did. I simply loved you for the aura you gave off that no one else had. Others may see you as boring, but I saw you as realistic. You’re a high school girl with dreams and ambitions, who struggles deep down but doesn’t say anything so you don’t have to worry others. Your solo’s were so diverse, Heroine being about wanting to impress a Senpai, Audrey being about trying to find who you truly are, Hitotsu no Monogatari being about the magic of acting and appreciation for those who gave you support, and finally Solitude Rain, where you let go of all of your fears and embraced the real you that was begging to be let out. It broke me.
I woke up early just so I could watch Episode 8 of the Nijigasaki anime, “Shizuku Monochrome” When I saw your episode preview the week prior I knew I was going to be hit with an emotional rollercoaster, but I never imagined it would be what I saw that day while sitting on my desk watching your story unfold. I never thought the things I struggled with, would be the same things you were shown to be held back by. It feels like the writers KNEW what I had gone through and said “Let’s use this for Shizuku’s episode!” When you said you put up a front, trying to look like a normal girl and hide your true, colorful self and kept quiet about your interests so people wouldn’t judge you, so that you could please everyone else, it felt like I was getting slapped in the face, as if someone was telling me “This is what’s going on with you! Now look at your biggest comfort character, she’s suffering through the same things as you, now you need to follow her lead and overcome those fears!” To put it simply, I cried so hard. I cried when I saw you suffer, when you told yourself you can’t show off your true self because “What if other people found you weird? What if they didn’t like you?” I’m still tearing up as I’m writing this just thinking about it. Obviously it hurt so much because I understood everything you were feeling, childhood trauma forced me to conceal the me that was colorful and bright, I was forced to be quiet about what made me happy, so that no one would hate me. The thought of people hating me scared me so much, specifically in real life spaces, so I thought if I acted as normal as possible- if I didn’t stand out no one would have any reason to be upset with me, or say mean things about me behind my back.
But when I saw you overcome those fears, when I saw how Kasumi encouraged you, telling you she loved everything about you and how you threw away your fears and decided to be your authentic self everywhere, iit gave me hope. I’m nowhere close to where you are yet, but I know if you were able to do it, I can too. I don’t think there’s enough words I can write to fully express how much you mean to me and how happy you made me. But hopefully now other people can understand why people like me and many others love you so much and will be kinder to you. You don’t deserve to be hated, especially when you’re such an inspiring person to me and I’m very sure to others as well. Today is YOUR day and you deserve all the love in the world. Happy Birthday Shizuku, I hope you can spend today happily with the people you love. (Also please come home, I still don’t have your Moon Rabbit UR and that’s the only card I need to complete your SIFAS EN outfit!) I’m also tiering hard in your event right now. I WILL get T1, just for you!
Happy birthday, Shizuku! I wrote an essay of sorts for her earlier which I'll leave here!
It's not April 3rd where I am yet, but since it already is in Japan, I can officially say this. Happy birthday, Shizuku!
But it doesn't end there. I'd like to tell you guys the journey of how I came to like Shizuku Osaka, and maybe it will be enough to explain just how important this day has become to me.
If you asked me from any time before last year, April 3rd is not really a day I would have held close to me before. Simply put, I've always had an interest in Shizuku ever since Niji was first revealed as PDP, but that interest did not skyrocket until last year.
In the beginning, I was already drawn to Shizuku's double actress and school idol appeal. Anata no Risou no Heroine supplemented that, and pretty much tied with CHASE! for my favorite solo from Tokimeki Runners. However, I was still uncertain if I should consider her my best girl, even if she was the girl I had the most interest in compared to the others. Up until last year, I was still purely an Aqours fan. Niji, while it looked promising at the time, had not yet beaten Aqours for me.
This completely changed after the anime aired. The Niji anime changed everything. Or, more specifically, Shizuku changed everything.
Episode 8, Shizuku Monochrome. When I saw the preview at the end of episode 7, I knew it wasn't going to hold back, and so I started to prepare myself for it. Seeing Shizuku sad and dejected in the preview hit me painfully hard. She still wasn't officially my favorite then, but maybe I'd already unconsciously made the decision that she would be. Her episode preview was the first one that made me genuinely feel a powerful mix of emotions and had me truly excited (yet scared) to watch her full episode.
I lied to myself saying that I'd prepared enough for the real thing when the episode came around, but honestly, I really didn't. I went in with nothing at all, but somehow came out with everything. Watching Shizuku's struggles and anxieties unfold on the screen, the hidden symbolism of black and white Shizuku on the stage - simply put, I cried. I cried harder than I've ever cried for any anime. I cried because of how relatable Shizuku was, because of how I finally realized the actual circumstances surrounding her character, and because of how I'd finally found a reason to proclaim her as not only my best girl for Niji, but also for the whole LL franchise in general. And then I cried even harder with Solitude Rain, listening to how Shizuku was finally willing to express more of her true self. Clearly, it was on that day that Niji and Shizuku overthrew everything.
There's still a lot of people out there who don't truly understand Shizuku as a character. They look at her and say, "Oh, boring actress girl! Nothing special about her." And while that may appear true on the outside, Shizuku is not a character that can be defined by just what you see on the surface. It's almost funny to think that this could be the exact effect of her having a deeper character. That she puts up a mask to appear like a normal girl with nothing special about her, when in reality her true self is so much brighter and more unique than anyone could ever imagine. But this would turn into a whole character analysis if it went deeper, which isn't really the purpose of this post, so I'll leave that topic at this: to appreciate Shizuku, you have to dive in deeper than just what she shows on the surface. She's so much more than just a normal actress girl.
With that, happy birthday again, Shizuku! Thank you for being you; you've made a huge impact on both my life and the lives of many others. April is your month and today is your day! 💧💙
~ tira (@tiraamvsu)
I hope you and Ophelia are having an awesome day uwu
And I also hope that your counterpart from my Tokimeki PokéLive! and Twinbee AU has something special planned for today with Hilda's counterpart and possibly Yoko (Their adopted daughter from the near future~) from said AU as well <3
And I am also planning on writing a story for her birthday again this year, but i'm kinda having slight writer's block at the moment, but as soon as I can, i'll share it with everyone in my next post :>
Happy Birthday Shizuku! I had time to make a full cake and based it off of her anime song and outfit. Shizuku, Monochrome!
I am happy to be able to tier high and spread the love for such an amazing girl! 💙💧