I’m terrible at words but I’m gonna try my best to describe my feelings towards Hoshizora Rin.

To Rin, Happy Birthday! I’ve celebrated 4 of your birthdays so far, each year having my love grow for you grow more and more.

I’ll start at the very beginning. January 11th 2016, I downloaded the LLSIF app. I started reading the story and immediately fell in love with you! You were so cute, your voice was so sweet and my heart was so warm just seeing how adorable you are. I desperately wanted a UR of you but it never came.. Not without trying of course. I remember when Valentine v1 came out I spent money for the first time to no avail… I decided to save for Pool. Which at some point they started putting both URs in the same box to get ready for Aqours. I was robbed of enough time, I only had 100 gems but still prayed you’d come home. I was… unlucky. I cried. “If only I had enough time, I’m sure I could’ve gotten her!” I thought.

It wasn’t until January 17th 2017 that I got my first UR of you. There was a Lily White box, It was Hanayo’s birthday so I got 5 gems. I decided ‘why not?’ and solo’d. My eyes grew wide when a UR popped out but my heart.. It gave out when I saw you. I cried, right then and there. I was so.. unbelievably happy! Since then, I’ve gotten 8 more URs of you, each one making me so happy. Some I whaled for, others I got out of pure luck, either way I was so grateful to you for blessing me like this.

I remember when I watched the anime I would always feel so happy when you’d show up. Just hearing your voice made me so happy! I related alot to your struggles with liking the things you like.. I used to be a tomboy aswell, thinking that was just what I had to be since I wasn’t conventionally pretty.. in my eyes anyway. It was like a protest even though there was nothing to protest about? It’s only recently I became comfortable being myself. I wanna stop pretending I’m someone I’m not. I want to have people like me for me.

These past 4.5 years together have been more amazing than I can describe.. It’s a time I’ll always be grateful for till the day I die. You are so important to me it’s not even funny. I want to always see you smile, forever. I wanna see you grow and be the best you can be.

I really am bad at words but my god, I love you so much.. Everytime I see you I just.. Feel so much better. You make me so happy, so overwhelmingly happy… Please continue to smile forever.

And here’s where I’ll share my very small amount of merch aha,,

I wish I had way more but I’m content with this. I’d love to get her manju soon and much more charms. And of course, I wanted to draw her so here’s a quick thing I made for her!

Happy Birthday, Rin. I love you so so so so so much. Thank you so much for supporting me through so many tough times and understanding when I wasn’t focused on you. I hope you know how much you mean to me. Nothing could ever make me dislike you, you are my everything ♥