Trigger warnings: negative thoughts (interpret it as you may), please skip as this is more of me retelling myself about what made me stay

2019 I stumbled across the love live SIP anime and decided to watch it. It was okay, and tbh i really loved the opening but it didnt really reeled me in and then on 3rd August, by chance, I found out it has a game, through an instagram post about Honoka's birthday I liked gacha games and wanted to somewhat get better at rhythm games (spoiler i dont, even now) and well long story short, 2019 was a year filled with confusion, for me i was ready to give everything up, i wanted to leave everything behind but when I see Eli, i felt a small drive inside myself "jess, please stay, at least stay for more Eli cards to collect"

and so I stayed but I gradully got busier and stopped playing SIF I played SIFAS but was not that active either 2023, those thoughts kept coming back, worse than before i reinstalled sif for the memories and heard that it was closing down... and i felt like closing down too but i may want to experience sif2, at least the gacha, at least once i hope i can stay until then

This Eli card holds a special place in me, this was my first Eli UR Love Live as a whole is also a really special one for me Sure, i have lots of regrets, but love live is never one of them. Im glad i found it, im glad i found new friends from it, and im glad i found my best girls. Theyre the reason im here.

Thank you, love live, thank you sif, and thank you all love live fans