Trigger warnings: negative thoughts (interpret it as you may), please skip as this is more of me retelling myself about what made me stay
2019 I stumbled across the love live SIP anime and decided to watch it. It was okay, and tbh i really loved the opening but it didnt really reeled me in
and then on 3rd August, by chance, I found out it has a game, through an instagram post about Honoka's birthday
I liked gacha games and wanted to somewhat get better at rhythm games (spoiler i dont, even now)
and well long story short, 2019 was a year filled with confusion, for me
i was ready to give everything up, i wanted to leave everything behind
but when I see Eli, i felt a small drive inside myself
"jess, please stay, at least stay for more Eli cards to collect"
and so I stayed
but I gradully got busier and stopped playing SIF
I played SIFAS but was not that active either
2023, those thoughts kept coming back, worse than before
i reinstalled sif for the memories and heard that it was closing down... and i felt like closing down too
but i may want to experience sif2, at least the gacha, at least once
i hope i can stay until then
This Eli card holds a special place in me, this was my first Eli UR
Love Live as a whole is also a really special one for me
Sure, i have lots of regrets, but love live is never one of them. Im glad i found it, im glad i found new friends from it, and im glad i found my best girls. Theyre the reason im here.
Thank you, love live, thank you sif, and thank you all love live fans